Wait what?

I'm not sure why I still have this up...I only created it to post on my BFF's blogspot while she was in Europe...and she's been back and have graduated...I'm actually in her new apartment right now...She's rather set in life for at least the next two years while I hide behind the college experience for another year

But it's been over a year since I last posted and I feel it's time to post again here since I have nothing much to say on xanga, where no one reads it much like no one reads this but here, I feel a little more anonymous...just the nature of the different blogs sites...this is all besides the point

I read what I wrote and I'm instantly ashamed of my emotions...the weakness

Well, to update on "emotions" and whatnot...I would like to think I'm stronger

or at least I'm making an attempt to seem that way if not to other people then at least to myself...whatever gets me through the day in one piece instead of pieces wasted on tissues and pillow cases

The Guy Situation:
I've taken JBeach's advice...Love like a man..or rather treat relationships like one..if it's not set in stone then don't act like it is...this is not to say that men are heartless and don't care or whatever stereotype you think I'm alluding to...I know plenty of guys that are all heart...but let's just be a little ignorant/simpleminded right now to make my blogging a little simpler...hell, to make labeling things simpler because that's all that I'm doing really at the moment

So I'm following a few paths right now...or rather, I have yet to choose a road and am keeping the fork in sight while I peer down each option...my options do not include any certainties so perhaps that's what keeps me from moving down any of them...love with security

hahaha

right.

I don't believe there is a sure thing but I'd like to believe there might be but I'm just too stupid to know where to look for it

I may be standing here at this fork in the road for quite a long time...come take a seat with me or maybe just drop a piece of advice along your way...