yes...Dartmouth grads earn top dollars TEN years after graduating...F, man...I have bills to pay NOW...I have things I want to do @ NOW
and I am still unemployed...this fact may have come to be because I have not actually looked for a job yet. I'm working. I have a summer job. This was supposed to hold me over until I found a job meaning I would have made attempts at finding a job over the course of the 6 weeks I would be teaching in Brooklyn. Summer school ends this Friday and I haven't even gotten my resume in order. I kind of knew I wouldn't do anything I promised myself I would. It's just how I am.
I have no excuse now. The next two weeks MUST be devoted to finding a job. I had the excuse of "I have no internet at home." Borrowed internet did not count. I'm not sure why but in my head I needed an excuse. Now I have no more excuses as I had internet hooked up at home yesterday.
Plus this past week has really shown me that I need to be out of the house ASAP. Nothing I said or did was to the liking of my mother. I think she really is slipping into menopause because she was especially :::ROAR::: about her displeasure with my existence. While I would normally support a fellow female in her time of need and especially my mother, I think I really need to not be the hormonal punching bag for the sake and preservation of an otherwise great relationship I have with her. A job would get me out of the house at least a few hours of the day. A job would get of out of the nest, too. That would be nice.
So what has happened since the last entry?
I graduated. Dartmouth. A 4-year program in 5 years. Don't ask. I don't want to tell you lies and I don't want to repeat myself. Yes. Super senior. Now shut the fuck up. I'm hoping the Ivy League name will erase some of that shame. Then again, who the fack knows Dartmouth?
Many emotional ups and downs. Of course.
Lived the last term at Dartmouth with Dexter. That was definitely an experience. What a tease that experience was. I lived on my own (kind of) for 3 months. I wouldn't say it was liberating but it has definitely taught me more about living on my own than any of the last 4 years away from home at school. Working to make the rent. Grabbing hours left and right for grocery money. Spending wisely (or better attempts at doing so) so I can pay other bills. BUGS. I really fucking hate bugs. I hate NATURE bugs. City bugs I can deal with. Get some spray. Set some traps things. Keep the abode clean. But out in the F'ing boonies, bugs come no matter what. I can't even open a window when I'm cooking because that will attract a torrent of flies hoping to infect me with some grimy bacterial crap. And Spiders. Yes. Spiders with a capital S. NASTY shits. Man built shelter to keep nature at bay. New Hampshire didn't get that damn memo. I miss driving around "town" in my Corolla though. That baby is no longer mine. But it finally has NY plates for once in its life. Congrats, 'Rolla!
I turned 23. I've gotten to the point where I don't remember how old I am and I have to actually do that math to remember. This is rather sad. And while I love my girls, I needs me a man. I don't want to get old (like 30...yuck...so close now) and not have started a family. Do I want to starting popping out the first of my brood next week? No. Not that soon. But I need to get the prep stuff down. You know, the boyfriend...the engagement...the marriage...That stuff.
O yes. I need to get that PhD, too. I want to get started on that soonish. Not too too soon. I need a break from learning. And I also need to do research on what I need to do to get into some kind of program. I also need to know what program I want to get into. Hahaha! At the very least, I'm pretty sure I want to eventually work with children/youth and families. Counseling. I can definitely do that with an MSW but I want that PhD. I couldn't get through premed for med school but I WILL be a doctor, damnit!!! Plus I want the options (and the money...just to support my habits...you know, the spending and the spending without the stressing and stressing) that comes with a PhD.
So yes. That's it for now I think. My memory is terrible and I should update this and/or xanga so I can remember things that has happened. I just have to remember to update...
